amys' heart

2006-10-21T07:36:00.000-07:00

Calling all Pray-ers.................

Bill and I are asking you all to please be in prayer w/us on Sams' behalf. As most of you know, Sam has some behavior issues and they have their ebbs and flows but I for one am tired of seeing him suffer.
The Sam we have at home and you see at church is not is not the Sam that walks into the principals office at least twice a week screaming , yelling disrespectful things at the adults in charge, crying, and sometimes hitting and kicking the furniture. Don't get me wrong, he is sweet and loving while he's there too, but many times his rage takes over and he loses control. We don't understand why he only gets this way at school but he does. When I arrive at the school when they call me it only takes maybe 5 min for him to calm down and speak rationally. However, he is still pretty angry and uses a disrespectful tone w/ his principal. He did confide to me that he wished the former principal was still there so that tells me he doesn't like this one. I tell him that even though he doesn't like her , he still has to respect her b/c she's in charge there. You see it's not just the principal though, it's little things that set him off and I think having to go to the office is the icing on the cake. I could go on and on but I think you get the picture.
Anyway, he has begun counseling w/ a Dr. he had in the past and really likes. Yes he takes meds. . We are waiting to see another Dr. to see about a change or adjustment in them.
I only tell you all of this so that you will know how to effectively pray for him, not just so I can vent. I truly believe God has a plan for Sam's life and thank Him for that plan. I also know that God is bigger than anything that triggers Sam's anger and in His timing Sam will find peace within.
Thank you all in
advance for your prayers.............................

2006-08-11T06:28:00.000-07:00

Today I'll write about Miss Hailey!

Hailey is everything I wanted to be as a young girl. She's sugar and spice w/ a splash of tabasco! She has always been a sweet and loving child. She a big hugger and is very sensitive. Her nature has always been this way. She's always been a happy child always singing, dancing around and laughing. Her bad moods are always short lived and she's very forgiving. Her spiritual side is really starting to develop. She asks alot of questions about faith and beliefs. I love this b/c it means that she's growing in this area of her life. Another thing I love is that she is very honest. I can't even remember her telling a lie. It may take her a little while to come to tell me she's done something wrong but she has never lied about anything. She tells me some of her very personal thoughts and questions, I'm soooooooo blessed by that. She used to confess things she had done or thought about that were not pleasant to hear. I used to be bothered by it b/c parents don't want to hear unpleasant things about their kids. One day I realized ( I think the Holy Ghost brought this to mind) that this is how we are w/ God our Father when we speak openly to Him and He welcomes us. Now I see our conversations in a new way and I'm blessed.
Hailey is also a great helper. She will do anything you ask of her and most of the time doesn't complain about it. She really loves babies and little kids and enjoys helping out in Children's Church or the nursery. She's also an animal lover and has alot of compassion for them. I believe her nurturing heart will take her far in the Kingdom of God.
Now for the splash of tabasco................... That would be Hailey's quick, dramatic temper. Though her anger never lasts very long it can come out strong and be ugly. I'm just glad that she can calm down easily, this will serve her well as she grows up.
Hailey is someone who can be counted on and trusted and I am very proud of her.

Later.............................

2006-08-09T07:16:00.000-07:00

Awhile back someone posted blogs to help people get to know her kids better. I liked the idea and thought I'd do the same.
I'll start w/Sam............................
Sam is a really intelligent boy. He makes A"s and B's in school and can tell you in detail about a variety of topics. He loves to tell knock-knock jokes,loves the Children's Museum, reading, and movie The Chronicles of Narnia. He loves any color that's not a "girl color". His favorite sport is bass fishing ( no other fish will do) w/ his Dad.
Sam does great academically but struggles alot socially. He has ADHD and OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) which makes it really hard for him to make friends. OCD is an anxiety disorder, for Sam it manifests as follows: excessive talking, fear of not being heard/listened to so he repeats himself alot, hyper-focusing on topics or objects ( dinosaurs, tatoos, Narnia etc....), he's a stickler for detail and has trouble settling for less than perfection, and inpatience. Other kids and some adults through no fault of their own, just don't understand or know these things about Sam and to them he appears to be annoying or just too complicated to deal with. Sam knows this and at times he does get bummed about it. However, through the power of prayer Sam has come a long way in the past year. I refuse to let his disorders become who he is, the only label I want for him is "Child of God". I believe as he gets older he will be able to handle social situations better. Sam inherited these things from me so I totally understand how he feels and why he does the things he does. Some days I feel like it's the blind leading the blind around here. God enabled me to go off all medication ( I had been on many different ones for many yrs.) I still stuggle w/anxiety sometimes but it's nothing I can't handle w/God and w/o meds. I believe when the time is right God is gonna do the same for Sam.

Later..............................

2006-05-26T18:10:00.000-07:00

AHHHHH Friday! The begining of the holiday weekend and the begining of my (hopefully short) unemployment!!! Yessssssss, I am no longer a "LUNCH LADY". I'm so glad that it's over. I'm trying now to get back into childcare and have placed an ad in the paper. Please pray that God will send me some sweet little ones to care for. I've tried working outside my home and do not like it at all! I guess I was home just long enough to forget how ( to put it nicely) challenging it can be out there. I've prayed about what to do as far as not returning to the school system in the Fall but haven't heard from God on that one yet. I'm literally praying that He doesn't tell me to humble myself and go back. Maybe I shouldn't pray that way, I don't know. I just really don't want to work there. I don't like feeling stupid and that's exactly how I feel in that atmosphere. I know I'm not stupid or anything I just feel like I don't belong there.
Anyway, have a safe and happy weekend...........

Later,

2006-05-21T19:06:00.000-07:00

Heavy Heart...................

Tonight I have a heavy heart b/c I was catching up on my blog reading and when I read Esther Slaughters blog from a few days ago and what her friend is going through it just saddens me so much. I remember the night Esther brought her friend to our Wed. night prayer meeting and we all prayed for her and her family situation. Since then God has brought this girl, her sisters, and her mom to my mind from time to time and I prayed for them when He did. I feel now that I need to pray a whole lot more for this family and that as members of Gods family,everyone that reads this needs to do the same. Please join w/me and stand in the gap for this family and let's pray them through this extremely difficult time. I'm believeing that God is going to do something wonderful and far reaching in this family. He can and will make something great out of this ugly mess. Thank you Lord!!!!

Later,

2006-05-12T03:46:00.000-07:00

Walking in His Freedom............

WHOOOO HOOOOO do I feel better!!!!!!! I not only feel better, I am better thanks to the Lord and praying sisters and brothers. ActuallyI was set free of satans grasp yesterday and it feels GREAT! I told someone yesterday that I had given satan about 24 hrs more than he deserved and now I'm through w/it. No more beating myself for not measuring up. God has been showing me specific things I can do to be able to walk where I need to walk and I'm following His lead. I know there is a whole lot more work ahead in different areas of my heart and life that He will help me get right but I intend to press in and listen to Him and cast satan out when he tries to trip me up again. I also know that it won't be easy but like the 3 guys in the firey furnace ( I won't even try to spell their names), Jesus is and will be in the fire w/me and will bring me through. I wrote that b/c that story was brought up in my presence twice in as many days. Maybe God is speaking to me again, DUUUHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Later,

2006-05-10T05:25:00.000-07:00

The Refining Fire..................

Awhile back I started asking God to remove all the ugliness in my heart. I know a few of the things that need to be removed but like everyone else I'm sure there are others that I don't realize yet. Being the faithful God that He is, I believe He is begining to answer that prayer. I believe He has recently tried to gently show where change needs to begin. I took notice yet only skimmed the surface a little and went back to life as usual. Well yesterday He turned up the heat of that refining fire a little bit and now I'm having to humble myself and recognize it for what it is. The thing is, I'm now feeling very depressed about it and not sure how to move through this w/Him. I'm of course not comfortable w/ what I've been shown and I know this is all necessary but I'm terrified of what's to come. After listening to Bob Preston and reading about how God dealt w/other people in the past, it just scares and depresses me. I know being depressed usually means our eyes are on ourselves and not God. That is true to some extent b/c I am thinking about myself here b/c it's My heart that is being dealt with. I don't feel like I'm focusing on this in a selfish way I'm just scared of what I will have to face.
If this doesn't make sense or whatever, I apologize. If anyone who has been refined ( I know, He's working on us all the time) has any suggestions on how to at least get out of the depressing part of this please enlighten me.

Later,

2006-04-28T04:18:00.000-07:00

In my quest to be more like Jesus, like everyone else I see just how FAR I have to go. The thing is, as I pray about things I need to improve upon the list grows and grows and grows! Soon I'm overwhelmed w/all this stuff and unsure where to begin. So, I find a starting point and begin to try to change only to realize all the other areas I'm neglecting in order to work on just one thing! It's so frustrating!!!!!!!!! What the heck do ya do??????? I know, pray and I do. I just want to learn to get out of God's way and let Him work through/with and for me.
My question is............how do you all work out your flaws or whatever and not end up neglecting other areas in need? Or do you?

2006-04-20T14:48:00.000-07:00

Do any of you know what the Bible has to say about family curses? If so, can you tell me where to read about it? Also, I'm interested in the titles of any good books on the subject. We are trying to deal w/somethings in our family that may or may not have to do with that. Any help w/where to learn about it will be appreciated.

Later............................

2006-04-17T06:05:00.000-07:00

Please pray for my Hailey today. Her stomach is hurting alot this morning. They are running more tests and drawing blood tomorrow. She has to drink 3 big bottles of yucky stuff by tomorrow afternoon and she's worried about that. Please pray that they will find out what is wrong so that it can be treated or that God totally heal her.

Later..........

2006-04-16T16:15:00.000-07:00

Did You Know..........(as Lisa put it) Part 2

I wash ALL our laundry in warm water.

I'm crazy about see thru containers ( totes, tupperware, etc........).

I have OCD ( but no longer take meds for it).

I love anything heart-shaped.

I love most veggies.

I love strawberry ice cream and orange sherbet side by side in the same dish.

I'm not a dog lover. Not a dog hater just not a lover of them.

I adore cats.

I hate working on Science Fair projects.

Other peoples driving habits kinda make me nuts.

That's enough about me.

Happy Resurrection Day!

2006-04-14T21:32:00.000-07:00

Ok, I decided that I want to blog too, so here I am! I guess the best way to start is to do a "Did You Know?" So here goes.

Did You Know:

Bill and I have been married almost 14 yrs.

My favorite food is shrimp scampi.

My favorite color is brown.

I can't sing worth a hoot but do it anyway.

My first concert was Alice Cooper (what the heck was I thinking!!!!)

I hate sleeping on air matresses.

Repetative (sp?) noises get on my nerves.

I want a lilac tree outside my bedroom window.

I love being around Spirit filled people.

Well, That's it for now................Later.